I have known for a year and a half that I need to sort out my drinking problem. I’ve had so many day 1’s in that time it makes my head spin. The longest I’ve gone is a little over 30 days and it was amazing! I had started to not think about it anymore (the ultimate goal for me) and was feeling great.
The problem is, I don’t know how to make it “stick”. The concept of accountability is coming up more and more often in my quit lit reading and I’m not ready to out myself to friends and family, so I’m hoping this blog will help.
I actually created this blog at the end of December, intending to go for 100 days until I got back my sober sparkle, as Brené Brown wrote here last year: https://brenebrown.com/blog/2019/05/31/what-being-sober-has-meant-to-me/ I didn’t get there.
But – 100 days seems like a magic number, and I want to do it. Here’s what sucks about drinking:
– that low-level feeling of despair
– hangovers, obviously
– feeling impatient with my amazing kids
– wanting to nap all day
– having a fat gut
– lying to myself and the shame that brings
– all sorts of little health nags I assume will go away once I stop poisoning myself
So, here’s to another day 1. This time, may it stick!