I had the briefest of moments of craving yesterday and told the Thought Bomb essentially to eff off, as it has no place in my life. Did a Zoom call with a couple long distance friends last night where we usually all drink and I didn’t: another win!
My father-in—law is coming to stay tonight and he and I usually share wine. I’ve put some in the fridge and am looking forward to declining when he offers to fill a glass for me.
I don’t have many readers on here yet but this little skeleton crew is keeping me motivated. I WANT to keep writing for you all and for myself of my successes and my aha moments in all this. It’s exciting! I don’t want to fall off the wagon and just disappear.
One thing I’m really trying to internalize from Catherine Gray is when she describes the process of carving out new neuropathways in our brains as essentially bushwhacking a new trail. I’m used to the wide highway of using booze to cope, and now I’m painstakingly carving out a new path of sobriety, mindfulness, meditation and self-awareness. It’s going to be hard – and THAT’S OKAY. I trust all of you who’ve made it to the great beyond past 6 months or a year and tell me the life over on that side is AMAZING. I can’t wait!
I would love to hear some of the most important things all of you have learned in your sober journeys? We hide so much from ourselves behind bottles of booze….