Shout out to any Macklemore fans out there! The rest of you are thinking “what the hell does that title mean?” 😂
I’m still working on reading through Belle Robertson’s Relapse ebook. So far she’s talking about sober tools and how we don’t get to say that one just didn’t work. She’s proposing that sober tools need to be layered.
Hot bath alone not cutting it? Add some meditation.
Still craving after meditation? Try getting into your hidden candy stash.
Addicted voice still whining through the candy? Get your journal and review your whys.
Why’s not cutting through the bulls***? Get your runners on and go walk.
You get the point. Layer it up.
I know that for me, I tend to adopt a f*** it mentality when I’ve gone through a few tools and I’m still craving. News flash – turns out sobriety is a LOT of hard work in the early days and we get tired. Putting effort into it over a couple hours to beat the cravings is exhausting.
Belle’s encouragement to keep adding layers was powerful to me yesterday as it allowed me to try a few more things (one being guilt-free chocolate, yassss) that kept me away from the booze.
The other thing that is a small ray of hope is knowing it’s not going to keep being this hard forever. I’m in the bushwhacking phase of creating new brain trails but they’ll get cleared eventually. I just have to stop relapsing and allowing the jungle to encroach on my hard work.