Christmas used to be a time of consumption for me: shopping, booze, and sugar.
I can’t really avoid the shopping! I have every intent of avoiding the booze. And the sugar question is really, really hard for me.
Anyone else out there also battling a sugar addiction?
I’m recognizing that I use sugar in all the exact same ways I used to use booze. I turn to it when I’m bored, when I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I’m anxious. I know the generally-accepted wisdom is to relax on the sugar issue while you’re in early sober days.
The thing is, the way I use it elicits all the same emotions afterward as booze used to. I feel ashamed. There’s endless self-recrimination for my inability to just stop. I binge and then I’m mad. Superficially, I know it wreaks havoc on my hormones which, among other things leads to pimply skin and belly bloat.
So on the one hand, I don’t want to overload myself with quitting two addictive substances at once. On the other hand, I don’t want to feel shitty and bound to a substance for any longer than I have to.
I welcome your insights! Thoughts on battling co-addictions that the world at large doesn’t view as actually that bad?